Time Traveler

When I am a Time Traveler, I'll travel back to my past into the year 2017 or maybe 2019. I made this choice coz these were the only two years in my life which I have all to myself. Away from Works, Away from Chores and Thank God, Again as single. As I live through these years, I find myself drawn to the world of Western Cinema. I've watched it all - various genres of Hollywood cinema daily, based on a timetable perhaps. But I've never breaked the bond with God, I've prayed after every morning shows and after every matinee, even though I'm convinced of my wronging that I am doing these two years. But I haven't killed one, i wasn't using alcohol or cocaine, just sitting there and watching. In that single room in the hostel, i sat down every morning till evening upto 4 or maybe 5. Just me and my laptop (who apart from my smartphone knows more about my private life, maybe more than you). What was I watching? Well, in the beginning I picked horror and thriller movies, then later on I went on to try different genres. As time progresses, I used to wish during these years, that they never end and begin again as a loop. Because it served me peace, I have money, I have my savings, life was good. Mere hopes of an introvert - as society would call people like me. Why I became like this? I don't know, actually, I don't want to know. Some of my friends caught me. They adviced. It might not work the same way as with others. You are something to them. Try to be that. During these time, call it present, my family is realising it bit by bit. But when one day, when it all come to light, I'll leave; go somewhere, make some money and travel. That's my wish - not to work with some private firm and earn something doing something which I don't like. That's why I want to be a time traveler - to be able to travel places without knowing whether it's to the past or to the future, without wanting to learn driving or take flight tickets - just to wander. Yes. That's what I always wanted. Exactly the thing I was doing with my life all these years. Spending them infront of the movie screenings and not to mind the life around. You can go to 2020 na? Just then it striked me. The time of the pandemic lockdowns. No. But I kinda loved that two years rather than 2020. They made me who I am today, to forget everything and to live in the world of cinemas and not to worry about the future which the God has already planned for you. So, yeah... why waste time, worrying about it all...let's leave our clothes and travel sometime... [Inspired from The True Accounts from the Private Lives of Hasin Hamza and The Time Traveler's Wife (2022)]